well that's over.
truth be told it's been over for quite a while... about three weeks. i was on the diet for about a week or so and lost four pounds, but it just wasn't working for me. i had hoped that paleo would help me with some health issues i had last year, but after looking more into it i learned that it wasn't giving the proper calcium or vitamin D to a woman of my age and health concerns. so screw that.
now to venture somewhere i don't think i've ever really gone before... my body.
if i am being totally honest - i've just never been a diet person. i do enjoy eating healthy, and for the most part most of the foods that i love to eat on a day-to-day basis are pretty healthy. i love fruit, i don't eat much meat and really do enjoy my vegetables. but on the downside is that i am italian - which means some form of carbs at every meal, and no shortage of cheese either. and now that i am home all the time, i have really enjoyed cooking new and more complicated recipes, and even baking - which is something i could never successfully do before [side note: now i am only semi-successful].
now, i don't have a perfect body. but generally speaking, i am happy with how i look. i am happy with my dimensions. i am a curvy girl, but in a 50s pinup kind of way [i like to think]. i'm not overweight and have a healthy BMI, so i can enjoy the bit of excess that i do have. i don't believe that a full life should have too much 'nos' on it... no carbs after lunch, no eating after 8, no fried foods, no sweets. that's just not my style. i don't eat dessert every day, but i like knowing that if i see an old-fashioned doughnut, i'm gonna eat that bad boy.
nor do i enjoy the regiment of having to go to the gym every day. i love having a healthy lifestyle, but for me that's jogging when it's nice out and hitting the treadmill when it's not [and i feel like it]. it's swimming as much as i can in the summer, and relaxing my body, mind and spirit with yoga. do i want a bikini body? bet your ass i do, but i'm just not one of those girls who is willing to give up everything to have it. and i'm becoming more and more ok with that as i get older.
my weight has never fluctuated a huge amount. yes, i still have some clothes from high school that i fit into. but i've gone up a few cup sizes and my ass has definitely filled out. but i am pretty happy. i don't believe in scales in the house [much to pi's annoyance] because i think that if you can look in the mirror and like what you see [and of course are healthy], what else matters?
for the record, i did yoga and ran two miles today. and i plan on doing it again soon - but after i take the weekend off and eat homemade spaghetti tonight :)
and just to prove i'm not full of it, here's a shot of my bikini body from last may i hid. you can tell it is very impromptu by my less-than-smiling face.
tomorrow i will probably wake up, feel fat, and delete this post. but today i feel pretty great.
til next time...
